drafts 0001 to 0056 – the untitled drafts you’ve never read - part four (last part)

The last part of the series and a moment where we move away from the 56 drafts that you must have read. From now you will just be getting a single draft, about a single thought, three times a week (Wednesdays, Fridays, Sundays). So, below are drafts 43 to 56. Alright, let’s do it. 

draft 0043

Do you guys ever have those fantasies that you make up so much? With so much detail, that they almost feel like they are completely real and you are enjoying it so much. 

You can be drifted off into a completely different world just with the power of pure imagination. You could be having one of the worst days, and you could just use your imagination to have a little escape. 

Sometimes, just imagining something that is completely not likely is worth it, thinking about how that life would look like. We all do this.

The amazing part is how our brains are able to construct and just create all these ideas to add to these fantasies that we think about.

For me I like to think of what life would be like if circumstances were different, but I don’t mean I am not happy with my life (I am) and I am most definitely not questioning what god has given me.

Anyway, the point is that the ability we have of being to produce these fantasies out of nowhere, and be able to make as much of it up as we can, is just mind-boggling to me. I guess that we should give thanks to god, our creator. We as Muslims would say shukran allah, which means thank you god.  

So, I’ll be back on Friday evening at 10pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0044

Does anybody feel that sometimes whenever you try to express your feelings to someone whether it be or family or loved ones, you just get a slap in the face and you are then you are blamed for having those feelings. And I am like that is not what I meant. Or how is that my fault? 

Ok, like I know that they might not mean it what they are saying or doing, but It so bloody annoying. You are just sitting there afterwards thinking that how has me trying to express my feelings, turned into me being in the wrong.

You think and you think and you think how is this happened, so then you come to the conclusion that maybe you didn’t even do something or say something wrong, they maybe just don’t want to hear it. Which then causes you to go absolutely quiet, as if somebody has just sucked your soul out of your body (I know it sounds like I’m exaggerating but I’m not).

Anyway, I just hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate, hate when this happens and makes me want to scream into a pillow so loud.  

Ok. Guys. So, I’ll be back on Sunday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0045

Does anybody know why when you are having a hot chocolate in a cafe, what is the actual point of the cream that they put on top of it? To me I don’t really see the point of it. 

I think that it is just to make it look attractive so that you want to drink it more, instead of looking into a boring cup of cocoa.

Like I read all the reasons from chatGPT, that the cream could possibly be keeping the drink warm by not letting the heat escape. Or that as the cream slowly mixes together with the cocoa it makes it more thick and creamy for taste. But, to be honest I think it makes it just taste worse. 

 I hope you 'drafters' let me know what you think about this or if you know the real reason behind it. I would love to know; and if you 'drafters' have any other thoughts about things that you don’t understand, I would definitely like to hear about them.  

So, I’ll be back on Wednesday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0046

So, one of the most holiest times for me and Muslims is starting tomorrow in the UK, and that month is Ramadan. It is one of the most important months of the islamic calendar, if not the most.

Ramadan is the time of fasting (also called Sawm), where Muslims will not eat or drink from sunrise to sunset for the sake of god and to spiritually elevate your soul.

This is also the month that the holy Quran was revealed to Prophet Muhammad (PBUH). So, reading the Quran from beginning to end is what most Muslims will be aiming to do.

There are some exemptions for people who can’t fast like if you are pregnant, ill or you have condition or disability that makes fasting not safe for you. For example, I am part of this exemption category because of my disability, if you want to know more about my disability check out draft 0019.

Also, a lot more praying is done in this month, especially during the evening prayer. More charity is done, helping people and increasing your own connection to god.

Anyway, I just wanted to catch you Drafters up with what is happening and for those who don’t know what fasting is (Ramadan). 

So, I’ll be back on Friday evening at 10pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0047

Don’t you guys sometimes just see a new word that you have never heard of, that the word almost sounds as if it is fake. Then, I wonder to myself, do people even actually use these words to talk, or is it just for writing purposes. 

Maybe, there are those people with money who actually converse with one another like this. But to me, who is actually going to use the word mizzle in a sentence, I’m definitely not going to. Imagine saying to someone its mizzling, they would be like, what! Mizzling! Exactly even you get what I mean. 

Like, I guess these words might be used for writing purposes and I am just blowing this whole thing out of proportion, which you know me I love to do.

Sometimes, I do wish that I could meet these people that use these words that I have never heard of, it’s not like I can’t use it in a sentence, they just that sound right when spoken.

Anyway, let me know if you guys have ever thought of this and please give me your views on this.

So, I’ll be back on Sunday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0048

The inconsistency of being consistent. Do you guys ever feel that you are doing things in a consistent order like when I publish a post three times a week to Substack, but it doesn’t actually feel like you are putting complete dedication into, so it feels inconsistent, I think that is me right now.

It’s not like I want to be consistent, I just feel like I do much better and improve on my consistency. I guess at the beginning of my Substack journey I had these dopamine hits that I would regular get because I was doing something new.

I am not saying that I enjoy writing, it is actually quite the opposite I love writing, getting to put thoughts onto a piece of paper and seeing if my words will resonate with anybody or if I can help somebody with them. 

Substack has been one of the greatest decisions that I have made and just being able to show my work in a great community is terrific. I knew a lot of you agree that starting Substack was one of the greatest things that you could have done.

Anyway, I hope that you understand what I mean by the inconsistency of being consistent.

So, I’ll be back on Wednesday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0049

Does anybody find the missing of looking for socks just to be (sorry for my language) a pain in the ass? You go through so many different pairs, their styles, brands, patterns and just agreeing on a material that is best for you like cotton, wool, cashmere and plastic (which I hate), just pure chaos (this is no exaggeration, I’m literally having a civil war in my head).

Then, when you finally think that you have found the right sock for you. Guess what! You haven’t! So, the hunt goes on. And on. And on. And on. I’m like, please just be the sock. 

I know some of you must be thinking that I am just making this a big thing when it isn’t. It is! But, we can with anything that we want to buy.

Anyway, I just wanted to see if anybody feels like this sometimes and how irritating it can be. Guys if you agree, I would love to know.

Now, the real question is, will I ever find the right sock? I have no idea! 

So, I’ll be back on Wednesday evening at 10pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0050

Draft 50. Wow! I honestly did not think that I would get this far, but I have loved every single minute of it. I feel that being able to express my thoughts on a piece of paper and to you guys, has really helped me as a person and understand things better.

It has also made me realise my true self and that is to be a writer or close to one. I do remember once that I did have this thought about being a writer, but that never happened and I thought that was just a thought. Now, I know all along that thought was actually true.

If you guys want to know my fantasy for being a writer, I will be releasing a draft on that very soon.

I do believe that we all will succeed on this extraordinary platform. Substack! I am still in awe by my amazing 67 subscribers that I have and I am so grateful to every one of them. 

I strongly believe that if you want something really bad then you can go and get it, but this can be applied to everything. Unfortunately. The point is acknowledging milestones is a very important part of the journey. Like I am acknowledging my 50 draft. I want to most importantly thank god for always helping me along with this journey and getting here. So thank you Allah (god)

So, I’ll be back on Sunday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0051

Ever since I have started my publication on Substack, I actually feel that I have changed at a person, in a good way. Like I have started things that I would never have thought that I would ever start.

Especially reading, I enjoy reading now. If you would have asked me a year ago if I liked reading, I would have looked at you in the most peculiar way possible (what are you even talking about, me reading a book, no way, but now I love it.

Also, pursuing a lot of goals that I had put off or didn’t even know existed. Like finding out that being a writer was actually a goal for me, I already knew that Substack existed before, but I didn’t think I was a writer so I didn’t even try to use the app. I guess everything in life comes at the right time from god.

I have also started to appreciate time and how it is the only thing that you can’t get back. So, I try to be as careful as I can be with things that I do, but we are all humans and sometimes (more often than I would like) I succumb to my desires to waste time. 

Anyway, I feel like Substack has been a turning point in my life to become a better person.   

So, I’ll be back on Wednesday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0052

You know when you are at the dinner table with your family members, whether you are eating a beautiful meal or just cleaning up after your meal and conversation just naturally occurs. But a disagreement breaks out and almost leads into an argument, you are sitting there trying to take the understanding point of view.

I actually said the other day to one of my family members, that you are not being understanding and that didn’t really work, so then I tried to tell the other person the same thing, maybe that they would both start to understand what I saying. That made it worse, as you can probably guess.  

I think the lesson that I took from this, was actually that not everything must be said, no matter how much it could be eating you up. Sometimes, silence is one of the greatest things that you can offer.

Anyway, I would like to know if anybody can relate to this, if you can I would really love to know.

So, I’ll be back on Friday evening at 10pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0053

Gratitude is one of those things that is everywhere at the moment, whether it be a book or a podcast, the topic is pretty much everywhere. 

Also, as a Muslim the act of praying to god, although it is a obligation (for why shouldn’t he be worshipped), it is a way of showing gratitude to god for him giving you life. 

Today, I think that gratitude has lost the connection to the divine presence (god), which to me is the very core element that has been neglected. As, they will now tell you to pick something on that particular day to be grateful for, like that isn’t the issue, the issue is who are you going to give thanks to for that (it can’t be yourself). So, it must be a divine presence.

Gratitude is a great thing to practice, but it must be practiced in the right way or it can become dangerous.

So, I’ll be back on Sunday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0054

Do you know what amazes me the most, is how people can believe something without any evidence whatsoever. Whatever you could tell or show them, would make absolutely no difference to them, they would still rather choose to listen to the lies.

It can be incredibly frustrating when this happens, you show them the facts of what really happened, but they prefer to listen to the altered version. It is like a deliberate attempt (which I think is) to just make their point of view the only one that counts. 

Like didn’t God (Allah) gives us brains to be able to think and use our intellects, and most of all have some humanity. People don’t understand the importance of standing up for the truth, they just think life is a joke. 

I know this topic is a bit much, but somebody has to say it and I have just had enough of hearing what people are able to justify. Its sad to say but the world is complete and utter mess right now..

So, I’ll be back on Wednesday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0055

The pain of regret, is one of the worst things possibly imaginable. 

Like let’s say if you were angry at somebody and you were just saying everything under the sun, you might say something that you don’t mean but it can destroy or affect your relationship in the future, in a bad way. 

You see in life every action has a consequence, whether good or bad, in this case bad. And we as beings of knowing right and wrong have to be aware of our consequences. 

When somebody tells a story of how somebody did something and what the consequence of that was. To me I am just going to base of the action that they did and not feel sorry for them about the consequence they are going to have to deal. As they should have thought about it, before they did it.  

I’m not trying to say I don’t do this, I have done it so many times and still continue to. 

The point that I am making, is that dealing with consequences can be so painful, it’s like somebody is literally stabbing you in the chest. The ache that you get from it, knowing that things may never be the same in your relationship again. Then, the guilt appears and at that moment, it is pretty much like your soul has been ripped out of your body. 

I know literally every single person can relate to this.

So, I’ll be back on Friday evening at 10pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

draft 0056

Who the hell gives a country the right to interfere with other countries and think that the way that their country is run is the best, and that everybody else should be the same. Well, it shouldn’t!

Everybody knows what goes on in the world and we all need to wake up in the world today. I don’t care what anybody does to justify it. Country should be able to defend themselves. 

How can you go into a sovereign country and kill their leader, especially the leader for the Shia's (islamic sect), what did they think would happen. It would be a simple kill and that’s the end. America has never one a war since WW2 and the Russians were the only reason they won that.

Anyway, the point is that it is illegal to think that you right to tell a country how to behave and kill a sovereign leader.

So, I’ll be back on Sunday afternoon at 1pm.

See you then, Drafters. 

End of the drafts you might have missed

draft 0057 will be next. 

See you then, Drafters.